Renaissance Woman

.modern day renaissance woman...an idea i'm toying with.. pussyfooting around

because i dont know how to properly execute it..

rather, i am already executing it,

just dont know where it'll lead..

what is a modern day renaissance woman you ask..

simply put, a woman who is in love with life, living, the art of it..

with a vast array of knowledge and expertise on many things-

living well, eating well.. cooking, traveling,

fashion, socializing, art..

have you ever seen a French woman? or watched a French movie?

if not, i suggest watching Eat Pray Love, about an American woman

who realizes she is unsatisfied with the life (her life) she created.

she watched, like a movie viewer peeking into someone else's life..

she watched herself go to college and fall in love and she watched herself do what she was supposed to do and once she realized that what society

wants her to do vs what she authentically wanted to do-she had to change.

she moved to Italy and transformed her life.

Same as such with Julie & Julia as well as Something New..

in all of these movies, the heroines did as they were expected to by society and in the end, lost a sense of themselves. i will be turning 25 shortly and my life thus far has been a internal struggle of what i ought to do-what my parents and family and society expects of me -- and what i want (or would like) to do--travel & write and experience life.

so i jump from venture to venture..

most recently i just wasted an entire year of working..

the year flew by.. day in and day out, phone calls from 9am-5:30pm..

dumbass customers, office politics, cattiness

(i work with high schoolers, i'm convinced)..

dumbing myself down so i'm not perceived as a threat ...

foolery and fuckery at its finest.

so i sit back and make a list of what im good at, what i like to do...

write, cook, eat, travel, read, draw, paint, take care of myself and ppl around me..

fashion, styling, photography ...observing my surroundings, enjoying

beautiful things.. flowers (unexpected)...centering myself..just living with

no strings attached.. i'm a bit of a free bird so i have to have options..if i feel

constricted or confined, i'll snap (literally)..

herein lies the dilemma--

how do i parlay that incendiary mix of me... my joie de vivre..into

something worthwhile and quite frankly profitable?! ..

so i blog.. and remind myself to post everyday.

i create a vision board.. begin regularly with yoga

and taking care of myself to the umpteenth power.

i eat slowly and sip slowly to enjoy every sense...

i tell people how i really feel instead of bottling it up.

i draw while im at that hellish job and lose myself in song.

hell, i make songs too lol.

this is a rambling post of sorts..

to get this shit outta my head .

to continue on my quest of inner peace..

modern day renaissance woman whom,

at first glance she's just another chick..

but after peeling back layer after layer,

you realize that she's much more...

she has that chutzpah, that charm..

and you want to get to know her a little better....

*muahz*